I’m Fat and I Don’t Like It!

I’m Fat and I Don’t Like It!

Sorry, can’t think of any other title than that,lol. It actually just hit me when I was thinking on what to post for today. This blog is more personal than my mommy blog, so just lend me your ears 🙂

Yep, I think I’m fat and so does my husband and my friends and every old friend who sees me every now and then and this is unexpectedly turning into a rant waah.. Can you blame me? My head title is “chic momma” and here i am starting to feel sad coz well, I’m fat!

I weigh… hmmm better you don’t know the exact numbers hahaha.. I’m actually lighter and thinner than 5 or 2 years ago. 5 eons ago, I was on my heaviest at 180lbs and I’m 5’5″ in height. So, imagine a “dumbo” walking in the mall with heavy loads, both body fats and body fats, grrr.. I had the courage to face the camera and saved those few photos taken when i was oh so huge simply because i want to remember those ugly years and to force myself not to eat too much or suffer the same embarrassments.

I’m not over-reacting, I’m pissed but I can still laugh coz at least i lost a few pounds after that and just lately after a week long flu, I lost another 4lbs. I’m supposed to be happy, right? Well, I’m not coz the body weight for my height is max 135lbs so you can guess how much bigger I am, huhuhu.

It’s not that my hubby doesn’t wanna hug me coz I’m fat, it’s a personal thing for me. I was used to weighing only 95lbs when i was young-er (lol) but of course this is what usually happens after giving birth via CS and after eating tons of pastries and not a budge to exercise. I’m blaming myself for allowing this to happen and the thing is, I like to eat and it’s really hard to stop!

I’m fat and I don’t really like what I’m seeing in the mirror. Jeans, shorts and even undies are slowly reaching their stretch limits (waaah), blouses and t-shirts are getting more loose each time I buy a new wardrobe, it’s killing me! Yeah, it’s easy to say, “then don’t eat” or “go on a diet” or “drink diet pills”. I’m diabetic, so not eating and diet pills would make death come much faster (lol). As for dieting, I’m on it but not really following any diet plans or something, just lessened the portions I used to eat more so on carbs. I’m eating cereals and wheat bread for breakfast and believe me, I’m not happy coz it tastes bland but I can’t do anything coz it’s quite effective for me.

I already lost more than 40 pounds thru the years and I wanna keep on losing til I reach the desired weight which is 135lbs or lesser. I wanna look in the mirror someday and see a sexy chic momma with curves and all hehehe.. I just hope that before I reach 45, I’m back to my old curvy shape 🙂 Thanks for listening 🙂

10 Responses to I’m Fat and I Don’t Like It!

  1. levy says:

    The last time I saw you, you were slimmer na kaya 🙂

  2. peachkins says:

    Same dilemma here…It’s hard to go on a diet!!! I guess what I need is exercise!

    • chic momma says:

      yep, for us who’s always in the computer while munching bits of food here and there, we need exercise to the max! Thanks sis!

  3. same here. i’m also fat and overweight by 30 pounds. i’ve never been thin. i was always in the range of 100-120 pounds. that was the healthy range for me. pero ngayon nasa 150 na ko and 1’m only 5’2. start na talaga ng diet.

    • chic momma says:

      aw, you’re one person who shouldn’t mind being overweight coz your face is still beautiful and baby face pa nga hehe.. Thanks sis!

  4. jem alvarado says:

    You are not fat sis. When I look at the mirror I also see myself fat but what I do is just to eat healthy foods because I can’t really trim down to my desired weight 🙁

  5. jared's mum says:

    gaah! we have the same sentiments, sis! I just hate all the clothes I cannot wear ever since I gained all those extra pounds! I have been the healthy side all my life, but I wish I can simply maintain my 54-kilo weight. I cannot simply accept that I now weigh 3 kilos more!! 🙁

    by the way, I thought you really lost loads of pound the last time we saw each other, you were simply sexy! 🙂

    • chic momma says:

      hehehe sexy? I thought I was bigger than ever oh except my face which looked like I haven’t slept all week.. But hey, you’re not fat, I think your weight is just right for your height.. Anyway, thanks sis 🙂

  6. wow! you’ve lost 40 pounds? you should be doing great!!!
    I say be more creative – windows of opportunity to lose weight for sure has opened up for you after writing this post! thanks to the power of writing!!:))

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